One of the jokes between my fellow Goddardites and me is how hard it is to click “send” for our packet work. I’ve written about how nervous I was performing this, but it was almost just as hard for me to watch it, AND then to upload it to YouTube.

I feel like a complete dork. I am wondering about minute details. I am mad that my voice was too quiet, though in the room it read pretty ok. The hardest part of this was actually uploading the video. I can always pull it, but I am endeavoring to learn from it. My inner critic and I battled ferociously, but I did publish it to YouTube.

I know that I am going to be judged. I know that some people are going to say that I am right on, or completely wrong. I wish it weren’t so, but it is. I can’t control anything but my own faith, hope, and love. I choose to push myself artistically. Who knows where that is going to take me. It may just make me a happier person, and not affect a single other thing.

I am ok with that.

Click here to watch the video: Nameless